My daughter is gone to college - so the house is rather empty now, but come the holidays and summer her energy will fill my home once more.
My husband - well he still works 3 days/evenings, and pretty much sleeps all day. I worry about him, and nag him once in a while about taking his blood sugar levels and whatnot. He still does not follow thru. It is his body, his temple, his shrine, and he can treat it anyway he wants to. Does he want to have a quality life further down the road or not, it is totally up to him, and if he really wants to hang around with me for more than just a few years.
And I think that is actually it, does he? or does he not?
You ask the question are you happy, are you content, and the answer is always Yes.
But is he still grieving over the marriage that failed, or rather the loss of the wife that said I want you gone. Is he depressed? The reason why he really doesn't want to do much any more? Why he just sits and watches TV.
Why it is hard for him to pick up, or go thru the clutter that is in his space. Was he always this way? I don't know, and there is no one to ask, except for the ex wife -- and I am not going there.
I remember my daughter saying that she wanted to go Kayaking again this last summer. Now granted the summer was rather warm - but we never went. We could have, but he always seemed to come up with an excuse why we could not.
That was a little vent -- It has been on my mind. I fear sometimes that this will only get worse, and that I will loose him because he doesn't take care of his health.
This past week, I have been walking in the morning. No destination, just a walk. Perhaps it is only 10 blocks total, but it is still a walk. I am not out there to win a marathon, just to walk and see the neighborhood. I hope that I can stick to it - even in the inclimate weather that is ahead. But again, it is only about 10 blocks that I walk. Wish me luck.
Tonight I will set up for a holiday bazaar at the Overlook House, it is a two day event, and I am looking forward to it. It will be the next to last one I will do this year, the next one at Bonnieville Administration Offices.
I hope that I sell a lot, just so I don't have to lug it all home again. So ... Can I? Can I share everyday? Can I convince my husband to look out for his health? Can I watch my own health better? Can I walk every morning? Can I have a truly successful event this weekend? I think that the answer is YES to most of those.
May your Goddess smile and send Blessings your way. )O(