Today -- I get to go visit my mother. I am looking forward to this. Even tho she is opinionated and hard to be around [because she is almost 89 for goodness sake] and as a child she was oh so critical of me. I know that she loves me so so much, and waited so long to actually hold me in her arms as a wee little one close to 58 years ago.
Giving me a question that I have always had.
Why was she my mother - why was I her daughter? How come did I get the brother and sisters I got, much less the nieces and nephew - grand niece and nephews.
Knowing full well it is all spiritual - but also wondering - if it is spiritual, then why are we not better, or more kind to each other. Why do we take things for granted - or why do we feel that we are entitled to certain behaviors or materialistic objects.
I have a sister, who I believe has paid her dues, and I believe that for once she is in a rescue space that she is entitled to. I believe that she has found a partner who will nurture her, and make things right. I know that my mother had voiced discontent when this partner first arrived and stole her away for a few days at a time - but I as I think about it - I think that it was just jealousy, and missing my father. Then there are those who believe that my sister is being selfish. But that is because they can no longer manipulate her into giving them the items, time, finances they think they are entitled to.
I don't think that she is selfish - I think that she is healing. I think that for once, she is finally coming into her own, and not succumbing to what her family or community thinks is good for her. Only we [as a singular entity], as spiritual being actually know what is good for us - but only if we listen to the inner voices we hear, think, or feel.
So yay! for my sis -- and yes I get to see her also. I think that it will be a good visit, even if it is going to be for only a day. It will still be a good visit.
Giving me a question that I have always had.
Why was she my mother - why was I her daughter? How come did I get the brother and sisters I got, much less the nieces and nephew - grand niece and nephews.
Knowing full well it is all spiritual - but also wondering - if it is spiritual, then why are we not better, or more kind to each other. Why do we take things for granted - or why do we feel that we are entitled to certain behaviors or materialistic objects.
I have a sister, who I believe has paid her dues, and I believe that for once she is in a rescue space that she is entitled to. I believe that she has found a partner who will nurture her, and make things right. I know that my mother had voiced discontent when this partner first arrived and stole her away for a few days at a time - but I as I think about it - I think that it was just jealousy, and missing my father. Then there are those who believe that my sister is being selfish. But that is because they can no longer manipulate her into giving them the items, time, finances they think they are entitled to.
I don't think that she is selfish - I think that she is healing. I think that for once, she is finally coming into her own, and not succumbing to what her family or community thinks is good for her. Only we [as a singular entity], as spiritual being actually know what is good for us - but only if we listen to the inner voices we hear, think, or feel.
So yay! for my sis -- and yes I get to see her also. I think that it will be a good visit, even if it is going to be for only a day. It will still be a good visit.