How do I feel when I, as a bookkeeper, work for my EX husband.
My stomach gets tight
the muscles in my throat get tight
and I feel much like a small and insignificant person that he always made me feel when we were married.
My heart beats really quick
my breathing is rather shallow
I feel a heavy weight on my chest
I believe that I might be having some kind of panic or anxiety attack.
I was asked once, why do you still do this.
Why do you still work for Neil.
I respond, cause then I can make sure that he pays the child support - spousal support. It is all centered around his obligations to me and what I feel he owes me. But, Have I broken free of the painful marriage?
I am thinkin -- not so much
Think that I should break free - think that I need to have a conversation with my partner. Think I need to create more art and not pay mind to can he or can he not pay the support.
My stomach gets tight
the muscles in my throat get tight
and I feel much like a small and insignificant person that he always made me feel when we were married.
My heart beats really quick
my breathing is rather shallow
I feel a heavy weight on my chest
I believe that I might be having some kind of panic or anxiety attack.
I was asked once, why do you still do this.
Why do you still work for Neil.
I respond, cause then I can make sure that he pays the child support - spousal support. It is all centered around his obligations to me and what I feel he owes me. But, Have I broken free of the painful marriage?
I am thinkin -- not so much
Think that I should break free - think that I need to have a conversation with my partner. Think I need to create more art and not pay mind to can he or can he not pay the support.
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